This post isn't going to be too long; I just wanted to come on here and talk about what I'm going through right now, because I'm sure a lot of people can relate.
Today, for the first time in awhile, I felt unbearably overwhelmed and anxious about the college admissions process. I had a breakdown, feeling so crushed by it all. Not because I felt I wasn't good enough or that I had failed. I was crushed because I could not get myself to stop worrying about the outcome. From prayer to talking it out with people, nothing seemed to work, and I hate feeling helpless.
I know that it is not in my control. I know that if I don't get in somewhere, then that is not a part of God's plan. I know college is not going to be the most important part of my life. I know all these things, yet I get so anxious for the outcome of those decision letters.
It's okay to feel defeated sometimes. It's okay to be stressed out. What you are feeling about this process, negative or positive, is valid. But remember that no rejection nor acceptance can define you. Jesus was rejected by the people of His time, and died for it. He is still rejected by so many today. He has experienced far worse rejection than we could ever know. So don't fear the outcome of this journey. Fear that you would let the outcome define you. You are so much more than a college decision.
That's my little spiel. Enjoy, and let me know if I can pray for you during this time (whether you're a high school senior or not). Love you all.
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